Song​-​a​-​Week! 4 [EP]

by Jason Avery

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The end of a 52 Song-a-Week project. The final thirteen weeks where I gave it my all (save for two weeks) and put all my emotion into my songs. It was the final thirteen weeks, I had to make them count. Because of this, this EP includes some of my longest songs I've ever written, along with the shortest song I've ever written. Both as of May 2013.

Weeks 40-52. From Feburary 14th, 2013 to May 9th, 2013. The fast-paced love hit, "Holding Hands and Making Rainbows", to the ballad in tribute to the very first Song-a-Week and They Might Be Giants, "Tarrytown Memories".

This EP includes live hits such as "Back to the Past", and "Subway Trains".

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released May 24, 2014

Recorded at Avery Studios in Middletown, NY

Jason Avery DeLima // vocals, guitar, bass, drums

All songs written by Jason Avery DeLima

Album art by Izzy Liberti

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Jason Avery New York, New York

Formerly professionally known as "Jason DeLima", Jason Avery is a 20 year old freelance multi-instrumentalist who specializes in drumming but also happens to play pitch based music.

You won't find that here. This is his original work.

Check the "Recommendations" link down below for his work with other musicians.
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Track Name: Holding Hands and Making Rainbows
What's the first thing that comes to some guy's head when he first sees another lady
Does he think about kissing her or doing silly things to her lady parts
Does he want to take her home to bed and send her to the moon
And then kick her out on the street like some old washed up toy

Well according to myself I'm not anything like that
I'm just some normal guy that no special lady would ever look at

We were together and we were destined to get married
Of course it didn't happen because of all the burdens I had carried
You know I'm still in love with you and I only want be with you
I wish you could stand in my shoes and see it from my point of view

I had to leave you because someone else was butting in
And if I could have you back I'd only do these things with you

I want to hold hands and make a lot of rainbows with you
The color spectrum from a fiery red to a violet blue
The kind of sparkly pearly blue I see from your glowing eyes
The day I stop loving you will be the day the music dies

My heart's a traveler, it's been all around the world
From Brooklyn to San Francisco, all the way to England
And I don't know when this journey is going to end
I just want to settle down with a lover I can also call my best friend

And if you ever want me back I'll be right here for you
And if we're ever together again I'd only do these things with you

I want to hold hands and make a lot of rainbows with you
The color spectrum from a fiery red to a violet blue
The kind of sparkly pearly blue I see from your glowing eyes
The day I stop loving you will be the day the music dies

And if you ever want me back I'll be right here for you
And if we're ever together again I'd only do these things with you

I want to hold hands and make a lot of rainbows with you
The color spectrum from a fiery red to a violet blue
The kind of sparkly pearly blue I see from your glowing eyes
The day I stop loving you will be the day the music dies

I want to hold hands and make a lot of rainbows with you
The color spectrum from a fiery red to a violet blue
The kind of sparkly pearly blue I see from your glowing eyes
The day I stop loving you will be the day the music dies

I want to hold hands and make a lot of rainbows with you
The color spectrum from a fiery red to a violet blue
The kind of sparkly pearly blue I see from your glowing eyes
The day I stop loving you will be the day the music dies

Holding hands and making rainbows
Holding hands and making rainbows
Holding hands and making rainbows
Holding hands and making rainbows

Is so fucking hot to me
Track Name: New Mexico
Everything happens for a reason
Whatever that reason may be, it was your time to go
You brought a lot of happiness and love into this world
I didn't know you but I'm sure a lot of people will be sad to see you're gone

I hope you find happiness where ever you're going now
Here I am, sending my best regards to you and your family

You've lived a long and presumably happy life
And I hope you rest in peace
Track Name: Wish You Were Here
Whenever I sleep at night, I pretend I'm snuggled up next to you
My face buried in your hair, just like we used to do

Sometimes I sit in front of my computer, hoping to see your face
So we could video chat until the break of dawn

And every day I wake up, thinking this will be the day you talk to me
And I only get disappointed when you don't talk to me

When I walk down the street sometimes I pretend you're holding my hand
My fingers clutching yours, just like we used to do

Whenever I go to sleep at night, I lie down and close my eyes
I kiss my pillow, pretending I'm kissing you

And every day I wake up, thinking I'm going to get better
Only to realize that it's not

If you can't tell I think I'm going crazy without you here
Demons and voices inside my head circulate all my fears
It's a feeling that I can't drain out with beer
And I really wish that you were here

And I really wish that you were here
And I really wish that you were here
And I really wish that you were here
And I really wish that you were here

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And I really wish that you were here
And I really wish that you were here

And I just need you in my life
I need you here by my side
I need here to be with me
And I just really wish that you were here

And I really wish that you were here
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And I really wish that you were here
And I really wish that you were here
And I really wish that you were here
And I really wish that you were here

To hold me
Track Name: Back to the Past
Who knows if you'll ever come and be in my arms
Who knows how long I will have to wait to be with you
Who knows how many girls I'll meet before you
Who knows when I am finally going to meet you

Please just come back to the past and be with me
I don't want to I'm sick of waiting patiently
Maybe I'll get my graphing calculator time machine
And we won't have to wait so we can be you and me

I don't know what color hair or eyes that you have
But I know, no matter what, you'll be beautiful to me
And I know after all this time it'll be so worth it
You'll be with me, I'll be with you, and we can live like you and me

Please just come back to the past and be with me
I don't want to I'm sick of waiting patiently
Maybe I'll get my graphing calculator time machine
And we won't have to wait so we can be you and me

I don't want to wait for you
I don't want to wait for you
I don't want to wait for you
I don't want to wait for you

I have no doubts that you'll never show up
I'll wait as long as I have to, until we're grown up
I don't know who you are but maybe I do
I'll go insane until I finally meet you

Please just come back to the past and be with me
I don't want to I'm sick of waiting patiently
Maybe I'll get my graphing calculator time machine
And we won't have to wait so we can be you and me

Please just come back to the past and be with me
I don't want to I'm sick of waiting patiently
Maybe I'll get my graphing calculator time machine
And we won't have to wait so we can be you and me

Please just come back to the past and be with me
I don't want to I'm sick of waiting patiently
Maybe I'll get my graphing calculator time machine
And we won't have to wait so we can be you and me
Track Name: Now It's Over
Tick tock tick tock tick tock another few seconds passing by
My patience is wearing thin and I feel like I'm going to die
You kept me sitting here and nothing has ever changed
My legs are getting stiff and something else has been arranged

I'm going to move on because I hate being dumb and sad this way
You're someone special and I felt like I had to stay
I lied a few months ago when I said I'd wait forever for you
Can you believe it? This one's for you too!

Now it's over, I'll never come back to you again
Now it's over, you fucked up every chance to be with me again
Now it's over, you're a shadow of my past
Now it's over isn't it? Can you believe it? Well you better believe it now

Next week it'll be a crazy Starhaven Avenue for me
You won't feel the same but I guess we can agree to disagree
You never loved me and I know I'll have to live with that
But I'm sick of all this bullshit and I'm seconds away from a panic attack

It hurts to know that somebody doesn't love you anymore
Things could be worse you could turn into a stupid dirty whore
You don't deserve me and I deserve so much better than you
Can you believe it? This fucking song's for you too!

Now it's over, I'll never come back to you again
Now it's over, you fucked up every chance to be with me again
Now it's over, you're a shadow of my past
Now it's over isn't it? Can you believe it? Well you better believe it now

Now it's over, I'll never come back to you again
Now it's over, you fucked up every chance to be with me again
Now it's over, you're a shadow of my past
Now it's over isn't it? Can you believe it? Well you better believe it now
Track Name: What Should Have Been
How could I go from being your everything
To being nothing at all
How could you throw me away when I loved you
And that meant nothing at all
I gave you my everything and my everything
Meant nothing at all
So who am I to get upset
When you make no effort at all

I'm sick of being the one who always has to make the goddamn effort
I'm sick of pouring out my everything to get nothing back at all
When will I meet someone who will give me everything that I deserve
When will I stop singing with this acoustic nerve

Forty five weeks, there's nothing new
I'm still writing these songs about you
You're not in love with me and I still have my head
Wrapped around you
It would've been one whole year if you made the effort
Like the one I made with you
But that's okay because of you I wrote some songs
Like Starhaven Avenue

I'm sick of being the one who always has to make the goddamn effort
I'm sick of pouring out my everything to get nothing back at all
When will I meet someone who will give me everything that I deserve
When will I stop singing with this acoustic nerve

You never appreciated a single god damned thing I did for you
I did my best to make you stop feeling so fucking blue
Try and find someone else who will do the things I did for you
And I'll try and find someone who will appreciate me more than you

Happy what should have been
One year of happiness
One year of you and me
One year of pure bliss

One year of being in love
One year of soaring high above
One year I've written 45 songs
One year of video calls
Track Name: Hungry & Half-Awake in Psych 105
I'm just another kid from Oregon
And I'm hungry and half-awake in Psych 105

I'm just another kid from Oregon
And I'm hungry and half-awake in Psych 105
Track Name: Cyber-P.O.F.
Drowning in a pile of shit
Talking like a little kid
Mindset of a naive teenager
Oh look, it's another hater

Someone who doesn't know me
Someone who doesn't know my story
Someone who's never been in my shoes
Someone who's got everything to lose

You're just cowardly piece of filth behind a goddamn keyboard
Hiding behind a monitor isn't going to save you in the real world
Go find a job or find some friends and do something better with your life
Talking shit on the internet makes me want to slice your throat with a fucking knife

Getting pleasure out of other people's pain
I'd like to strangle you with a chain
No one will care if you're dead
At least I won't, I'll laugh at you instead

I'll jump and dance on your grave
I'll celebrate and throw parties every day
Every year I'll shit where you lie
I'll be happy after you die

You're just cowardly piece of filth behind a goddamn keyboard
Hiding behind a monitor isn't going to save you in the real world
Go find a job or find some friends and do something better with your life
Talking shit on the internet makes me want to slice your throat with a fucking knife

You're probably worse off than me and you have nothing to live for
You've lived a shitty life and being a shit is how you deal with it
Well let me tell you, karma's a bitch, and this will bite you in the ass
And I guarantee the day you die will be the day I dig in the grass

I'll jump and dance on your grave
I'll celebrate and throw parties every day
Every year I'll shit where you lie
I'll be happy after you die

You're just cowardly piece of filth behind a goddamn keyboard
Hiding behind a monitor isn't going to save you in the real world
Go find a job or find some friends and do something better with your life
Talking shit on the internet makes me want to slice your throat with a fucking knife

You're probably worse off than me and you have nothing to live for
You've lived a shitty life and this is how you deal with that
Well let me tell you, karma's a bitch, and this will bite you in the ass
And I guarantee the day you die will be the day I dig in the grass
Track Name: Who Ever Knew?
You've found me lying on the floor
And every time I get here you kick my ass out the back door
You leave me to drown in my own tears
And it's been this way for the past two years

Will anything ever change between us
Will you ever feel this way about me
Do you have any idea of what we could be
I guess I'll have to wait and see

If I could write a song to let you know how I feel
Of all my stupid feelings for you, it wouldn't be anywhere near real
So I'll sail off into the misty misty sea
I'll end up sadder than old Mister Me

Will anything ever change between us
Will you ever feel this way about me
Do you have any idea of what we could be
I guess I'll have to wait and see

If I could say this to your face, you probably wouldn't care
If I were to drop dead right now, you probably wouldn't care
If I were to move away, stop writing songs forever
Give up my entire life for you, you probably wouldn't care

One day you'll find me lying on the floor
I'll be unresponsive and I won't be here anymore
So say your goodbyes while I'm still here for you
When I'm gone, people will ask "who ever knew?"

Who ever knew that I'm some fucked up kid with a crazy fucked up mind
Some stupid fucked up kid that fucks everything up
Some stupid fucked up kid that can't control his feelings
Some stupid fucked up kid that thinks he'll make it in life

I'm just some fucked up kid and I don't know what to do with myself
I'm just some fucked up kid and it's everybody else that makes me feel like this
Or maybe it's myself, 'cause I fucked up every chance I had in the past
I'm just some stupid fucked up kid and my time in this world will never last

One day you'll find me lying on the floor
I'll be unresponsive and I won't be here anymore
So say your goodbyes while I'm still here for you
When I'm gone, people will ask "who ever knew?"
Track Name: Subway Trains
So I'm here in the studio
Just thinking about you
Just wondering what you're doing right now
And if you're okay

I'd like to be here for you
Because I know it's not fun
Because every now and then
I still feel the pain

I've been here twice before and
It doesn't get any easier
And it's hard to believe that
You'll find someone better
If you need someone to talk to
Or a shoulder to cry on
Just call out my name
And I'll be right there for you

Boys and girls are all the same
They're a lot like subway trains
Some of them smell really bad
And some of them are crowded

One day you'll find the perfect train
Express line to your heart
And even if it's not the one
There's another train to come

I've been here twice before and
It doesn't get any easier
And it's hard to believe that
You'll find someone better
If you need someone to talk to
Or a shoulder to cry on
Just call out my name
And I'll be right there for you

I've been here twice before and
It doesn't get any easier
And it's hard to believe that
You'll find someone better
If you need someone to talk to
Or a shoulder to cry on
Just call out my name
And I'll be right there for you

I've been here twice before and
It still fucking haunts me
And I'm sure I'll get over it
But time and patience is all I need
I don't have any of that
My friends are there for me
And yours are there for you too
And we will help you through

This
Track Name: Death of a Woman
What did you do with her
Where the hell did you put her
I need her now
Can anybody hear me?

I'm locked inside this room
Screaming as loud as I can
Where are you now?
Can you fucking hear me?

You're not the same person anymore
The girl I used to love is gone, I'm sure
And these feelings I still have for you, they're not for you
They're for the girl I fell in love with two years ago

Somebody murdered her
I can tell by the way they
Cut her throat
It's in a straight line

That's the way everybody cuts a throat
Nobody does it differently
Because no one is unique

You're not the same person anymore
The girl I used to love is gone, I'm sure
And these feelings I still have for you, they're not for you
They're for the girl I fell in love with two years ago

You chose your friends over me
I guess that's the way I see
That you didn't love me enough
To put up with all this bullshit for me

I took a bullet for you
And what's the least that you could do
Just leave me to bleed and die
And let my soul rise up to the sky

It's a murder-suicide
A beautiful love died tonight
And it's never coming back

All of that is stuck in the past
Right where it belongs
And I'm not going back for it

You're not the same person anymore
The girl I used to love is gone, I'm sure
And these feelings I still have for you, they're not for you
They're for the girl I fell in love with two years ago
Track Name: Aura of Happiness
I dedicate this song to Christian Diana, Brian Milligram, and Mike Lombardi. The three most helpful and supportive people in this Song-a-Week project. This is Song-a-Week 51, it's called Aura of Happiness.

No, I won't talk about metacognitivity
And no I won't talk about bananas
But I will tell you the story about how
I wrote one song every week for the past year

When I was 18 and I was sexually frustrated
I set myself a challenge that would help me improve musically
I lost some friends and I made some new ones in the process
But about a year ago I never thought a single thing would change

Some awkward kid walking around with a guitar
Playing songs every Thursday at the Tuscan Cafe and nowhere else

But then I found myself in a very special place
The kind of place you'd think was outer space

I found myself in an aura of happiness
High above the ground in a place I can't digress
I get lost in the feelings of every song that I wrote
That I wrote, that I wrote

Now look at me I'm a different kid
One thing's never changed I still don't give a shit
About what anybody thinks about me or my music
But before you talk just keep this in mind

I was told I have the heart of an Idaho potato
I'm not taking any shit from anyone anymore

I found myself in an aura of happiness
High above the ground in a place I can't digress
I get lost in the feelings of every song that I wrote
That I wrote, that I wrote

There's one more week left and I don't know what to do with that
This year flew by so fast I don't know what goal to arrive at
This right here is the end of a chapter of my life
And next Friday will be the start of another one

I found myself in an aura of happiness
High above the ground in a place I can't digress
I get lost in the feelings of every song I wrote
That I wrote

I wrote about Jessica, I slept in skinny jeans
I fucking hate Applebee's, I live in a lakehouse
I really like bacon, I really miss you and me
Probably somewhere, three hours of sleep

Homesick in Oklahoma, I kinda love JP
I fucking hate society, I wrote about Matt Gould
And I wrote about a secret

I stuck up for my friends, I sat on the Canaan bench
I wrote about paintings, God gave me a second chance
This one's for you too, Starhaven Avenue
Wake up San Fran, my childhood is gone

Another deadly secret, mashing up potatoes
Silly little love letters, Interstate 25
And I saw the rings of saturn

I wear mookie mookie pants, I didn't write on Casey's shirt
I feel infinite, we have the best of both worlds
Ellie is my best friend, everyone almost died
I miss those good night calls, I want to die right next to you

I couldn't write a song, I had a silly dream
Fly me to England, I'm not getting better
And before I say thank you and good night

Holding hands and rainbows, driving through New Mexico
I really wish that you were here, come back to the past
Now it's all over, it should've been one year
I'm hungry and half-awake in Psych 105

You're a cyber piece of fuck, who the hell ever knew
I wanna catch a subway train before she dies

And here I am, singing my second to last
I never want to revisit my past
Everything that happened there can stay there
No other experience will ever compare

I found myself in an aura of happiness
High above the ground in a place I can't digress
I get lost in the feelings of every song that I wrote
That I wrote, that I wrote
Track Name: Tarrytown Memories
Tarrytown memories, take four
One two three

Nobody ever had any faith in me
Nobody ever thought I would go through with this
But here I am, shining as bright as I can be
Anyone who has any doubts, they'll have to come and see

What happened to originality?
What happened to playing the music that you like
I was sick of who I was, trying to always fit in
I couldn't take it anymore, I wasn't true to myself

So four years ago today I drove across the bridge
And these five guys changed everything for me

You're the reason I picked up a guitar
You're the reason I broke out my shell
You shine as bright as a shooting star
And you're the person that got my life out of hell

I didn't want to be like everybody else
Though I admit, I wanted to be like you
So I said, fuck you all, I'm going to do what I want
Everything I was in the past, none of it was ever true

I took a risk that would cost me more than my dignity
So I tried something new and pushed my ability

You're the reason I put down those sticks
You're the reason I left them all
Corrupted minds I just can't fix
If I bash their heads against a wall

If I could go back in time and talk to them
None of them would admit to being happy
Robots controlled by the music scene
Robots controlled by society

Don't give in to society
Don't give in to anybody else
Just do what makes you happy
And fuck what everybody else thinks

Oh ooh woah, I love you
Oh ooh woah, yes I do
Oh ooh woah, I love you
Oh ooh woah

I'll always love you
Flansburgh and Linnell

And that's the end