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Song​-​a​-​Week! 4 [EP]

by Jason Avery

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1.
What's the first thing that comes to some guy's head when he first sees another lady Does he think about kissing her or doing silly things to her lady parts Does he want to take her home to bed and send her to the moon And then kick her out on the street like some old washed up toy Well according to myself I'm not anything like that I'm just some normal guy that no special lady would ever look at We were together and we were destined to get married Of course it didn't happen because of all the burdens I had carried You know I'm still in love with you and I only want be with you I wish you could stand in my shoes and see it from my point of view I had to leave you because someone else was butting in And if I could have you back I'd only do these things with you I want to hold hands and make a lot of rainbows with you The color spectrum from a fiery red to a violet blue The kind of sparkly pearly blue I see from your glowing eyes The day I stop loving you will be the day the music dies My heart's a traveler, it's been all around the world From Brooklyn to San Francisco, all the way to England And I don't know when this journey is going to end I just want to settle down with a lover I can also call my best friend And if you ever want me back I'll be right here for you And if we're ever together again I'd only do these things with you I want to hold hands and make a lot of rainbows with you The color spectrum from a fiery red to a violet blue The kind of sparkly pearly blue I see from your glowing eyes The day I stop loving you will be the day the music dies And if you ever want me back I'll be right here for you And if we're ever together again I'd only do these things with you I want to hold hands and make a lot of rainbows with you The color spectrum from a fiery red to a violet blue The kind of sparkly pearly blue I see from your glowing eyes The day I stop loving you will be the day the music dies I want to hold hands and make a lot of rainbows with you The color spectrum from a fiery red to a violet blue The kind of sparkly pearly blue I see from your glowing eyes The day I stop loving you will be the day the music dies I want to hold hands and make a lot of rainbows with you The color spectrum from a fiery red to a violet blue The kind of sparkly pearly blue I see from your glowing eyes The day I stop loving you will be the day the music dies Holding hands and making rainbows Holding hands and making rainbows Holding hands and making rainbows Holding hands and making rainbows Is so fucking hot to me
2.
New Mexico 00:59
Everything happens for a reason Whatever that reason may be, it was your time to go You brought a lot of happiness and love into this world I didn't know you but I'm sure a lot of people will be sad to see you're gone I hope you find happiness where ever you're going now Here I am, sending my best regards to you and your family You've lived a long and presumably happy life And I hope you rest in peace
3.
Whenever I sleep at night, I pretend I'm snuggled up next to you My face buried in your hair, just like we used to do Sometimes I sit in front of my computer, hoping to see your face So we could video chat until the break of dawn And every day I wake up, thinking this will be the day you talk to me And I only get disappointed when you don't talk to me When I walk down the street sometimes I pretend you're holding my hand My fingers clutching yours, just like we used to do Whenever I go to sleep at night, I lie down and close my eyes I kiss my pillow, pretending I'm kissing you And every day I wake up, thinking I'm going to get better Only to realize that it's not If you can't tell I think I'm going crazy without you here Demons and voices inside my head circulate all my fears It's a feeling that I can't drain out with beer And I really wish that you were here And I really wish that you were here And I really wish that you were here And I really wish that you were here And I really wish that you were here And I really wish that you were here And I really wish that you were here And I really wish that you were here And I really wish that you were here And I really wish that you were here And I really wish that you were here And I really wish that you were here And I really wish that you were here And I really wish that you were here And I really wish that you were here And I really wish that you were here And I really wish that you were here And I just need you in my life I need you here by my side I need here to be with me And I just really wish that you were here And I really wish that you were here And I really wish that you were here And I really wish that you were here And I really wish that you were here And I really wish that you were here And I really wish that you were here And I really wish that you were here And I really wish that you were here And I really wish that you were here And I really wish that you were here And I really wish that you were here And I really wish that you were here And I really wish that you were here And I really wish that you were here And I really wish that you were here And I really wish that you were here And I really wish that you were here And I really wish that you were here And I really wish that you were here And I really wish that you were here And I really wish that you were here And I really wish that you were here And I really wish that you were here And I really wish that you were here To hold me
4.
Who knows if you'll ever come and be in my arms Who knows how long I will have to wait to be with you Who knows how many girls I'll meet before you Who knows when I am finally going to meet you Please just come back to the past and be with me I don't want to I'm sick of waiting patiently Maybe I'll get my graphing calculator time machine And we won't have to wait so we can be you and me I don't know what color hair or eyes that you have But I know, no matter what, you'll be beautiful to me And I know after all this time it'll be so worth it You'll be with me, I'll be with you, and we can live like you and me Please just come back to the past and be with me I don't want to I'm sick of waiting patiently Maybe I'll get my graphing calculator time machine And we won't have to wait so we can be you and me I don't want to wait for you I don't want to wait for you I don't want to wait for you I don't want to wait for you I have no doubts that you'll never show up I'll wait as long as I have to, until we're grown up I don't know who you are but maybe I do I'll go insane until I finally meet you Please just come back to the past and be with me I don't want to I'm sick of waiting patiently Maybe I'll get my graphing calculator time machine And we won't have to wait so we can be you and me Please just come back to the past and be with me I don't want to I'm sick of waiting patiently Maybe I'll get my graphing calculator time machine And we won't have to wait so we can be you and me Please just come back to the past and be with me I don't want to I'm sick of waiting patiently Maybe I'll get my graphing calculator time machine And we won't have to wait so we can be you and me
5.
Tick tock tick tock tick tock another few seconds passing by My patience is wearing thin and I feel like I'm going to die You kept me sitting here and nothing has ever changed My legs are getting stiff and something else has been arranged I'm going to move on because I hate being dumb and sad this way You're someone special and I felt like I had to stay I lied a few months ago when I said I'd wait forever for you Can you believe it? This one's for you too! Now it's over, I'll never come back to you again Now it's over, you fucked up every chance to be with me again Now it's over, you're a shadow of my past Now it's over isn't it? Can you believe it? Well you better believe it now Next week it'll be a crazy Starhaven Avenue for me You won't feel the same but I guess we can agree to disagree You never loved me and I know I'll have to live with that But I'm sick of all this bullshit and I'm seconds away from a panic attack It hurts to know that somebody doesn't love you anymore Things could be worse you could turn into a stupid dirty whore You don't deserve me and I deserve so much better than you Can you believe it? This fucking song's for you too! Now it's over, I'll never come back to you again Now it's over, you fucked up every chance to be with me again Now it's over, you're a shadow of my past Now it's over isn't it? Can you believe it? Well you better believe it now Now it's over, I'll never come back to you again Now it's over, you fucked up every chance to be with me again Now it's over, you're a shadow of my past Now it's over isn't it? Can you believe it? Well you better believe it now
6.
How could I go from being your everything To being nothing at all How could you throw me away when I loved you And that meant nothing at all I gave you my everything and my everything Meant nothing at all So who am I to get upset When you make no effort at all I'm sick of being the one who always has to make the goddamn effort I'm sick of pouring out my everything to get nothing back at all When will I meet someone who will give me everything that I deserve When will I stop singing with this acoustic nerve Forty five weeks, there's nothing new I'm still writing these songs about you You're not in love with me and I still have my head Wrapped around you It would've been one whole year if you made the effort Like the one I made with you But that's okay because of you I wrote some songs Like Starhaven Avenue I'm sick of being the one who always has to make the goddamn effort I'm sick of pouring out my everything to get nothing back at all When will I meet someone who will give me everything that I deserve When will I stop singing with this acoustic nerve You never appreciated a single god damned thing I did for you I did my best to make you stop feeling so fucking blue Try and find someone else who will do the things I did for you And I'll try and find someone who will appreciate me more than you Happy what should have been One year of happiness One year of you and me One year of pure bliss One year of being in love One year of soaring high above One year I've written 45 songs One year of video calls
7.
I'm just another kid from Oregon And I'm hungry and half-awake in Psych 105 I'm just another kid from Oregon And I'm hungry and half-awake in Psych 105
8.
Cyber-P.O.F. 03:25
Drowning in a pile of shit Talking like a little kid Mindset of a naive teenager Oh look, it's another hater Someone who doesn't know me Someone who doesn't know my story Someone who's never been in my shoes Someone who's got everything to lose You're just cowardly piece of filth behind a goddamn keyboard Hiding behind a monitor isn't going to save you in the real world Go find a job or find some friends and do something better with your life Talking shit on the internet makes me want to slice your throat with a fucking knife Getting pleasure out of other people's pain I'd like to strangle you with a chain No one will care if you're dead At least I won't, I'll laugh at you instead I'll jump and dance on your grave I'll celebrate and throw parties every day Every year I'll shit where you lie I'll be happy after you die You're just cowardly piece of filth behind a goddamn keyboard Hiding behind a monitor isn't going to save you in the real world Go find a job or find some friends and do something better with your life Talking shit on the internet makes me want to slice your throat with a fucking knife You're probably worse off than me and you have nothing to live for You've lived a shitty life and being a shit is how you deal with it Well let me tell you, karma's a bitch, and this will bite you in the ass And I guarantee the day you die will be the day I dig in the grass I'll jump and dance on your grave I'll celebrate and throw parties every day Every year I'll shit where you lie I'll be happy after you die You're just cowardly piece of filth behind a goddamn keyboard Hiding behind a monitor isn't going to save you in the real world Go find a job or find some friends and do something better with your life Talking shit on the internet makes me want to slice your throat with a fucking knife You're probably worse off than me and you have nothing to live for You've lived a shitty life and this is how you deal with that Well let me tell you, karma's a bitch, and this will bite you in the ass And I guarantee the day you die will be the day I dig in the grass
9.
You've found me lying on the floor And every time I get here you kick my ass out the back door You leave me to drown in my own tears And it's been this way for the past two years Will anything ever change between us Will you ever feel this way about me Do you have any idea of what we could be I guess I'll have to wait and see If I could write a song to let you know how I feel Of all my stupid feelings for you, it wouldn't be anywhere near real So I'll sail off into the misty misty sea I'll end up sadder than old Mister Me Will anything ever change between us Will you ever feel this way about me Do you have any idea of what we could be I guess I'll have to wait and see If I could say this to your face, you probably wouldn't care If I were to drop dead right now, you probably wouldn't care If I were to move away, stop writing songs forever Give up my entire life for you, you probably wouldn't care One day you'll find me lying on the floor I'll be unresponsive and I won't be here anymore So say your goodbyes while I'm still here for you When I'm gone, people will ask "who ever knew?" Who ever knew that I'm some fucked up kid with a crazy fucked up mind Some stupid fucked up kid that fucks everything up Some stupid fucked up kid that can't control his feelings Some stupid fucked up kid that thinks he'll make it in life I'm just some fucked up kid and I don't know what to do with myself I'm just some fucked up kid and it's everybody else that makes me feel like this Or maybe it's myself, 'cause I fucked up every chance I had in the past I'm just some stupid fucked up kid and my time in this world will never last One day you'll find me lying on the floor I'll be unresponsive and I won't be here anymore So say your goodbyes while I'm still here for you When I'm gone, people will ask "who ever knew?"
10.
So I'm here in the studio Just thinking about you Just wondering what you're doing right now And if you're okay I'd like to be here for you Because I know it's not fun Because every now and then I still feel the pain I've been here twice before and It doesn't get any easier And it's hard to believe that You'll find someone better If you need someone to talk to Or a shoulder to cry on Just call out my name And I'll be right there for you Boys and girls are all the same They're a lot like subway trains Some of them smell really bad And some of them are crowded One day you'll find the perfect train Express line to your heart And even if it's not the one There's another train to come I've been here twice before and It doesn't get any easier And it's hard to believe that You'll find someone better If you need someone to talk to Or a shoulder to cry on Just call out my name And I'll be right there for you I've been here twice before and It doesn't get any easier And it's hard to believe that You'll find someone better If you need someone to talk to Or a shoulder to cry on Just call out my name And I'll be right there for you I've been here twice before and It still fucking haunts me And I'm sure I'll get over it But time and patience is all I need I don't have any of that My friends are there for me And yours are there for you too And we will help you through This
11.
What did you do with her Where the hell did you put her I need her now Can anybody hear me? I'm locked inside this room Screaming as loud as I can Where are you now? Can you fucking hear me? You're not the same person anymore The girl I used to love is gone, I'm sure And these feelings I still have for you, they're not for you They're for the girl I fell in love with two years ago Somebody murdered her I can tell by the way they Cut her throat It's in a straight line That's the way everybody cuts a throat Nobody does it differently Because no one is unique You're not the same person anymore The girl I used to love is gone, I'm sure And these feelings I still have for you, they're not for you They're for the girl I fell in love with two years ago You chose your friends over me I guess that's the way I see That you didn't love me enough To put up with all this bullshit for me I took a bullet for you And what's the least that you could do Just leave me to bleed and die And let my soul rise up to the sky It's a murder-suicide A beautiful love died tonight And it's never coming back All of that is stuck in the past Right where it belongs And I'm not going back for it You're not the same person anymore The girl I used to love is gone, I'm sure And these feelings I still have for you, they're not for you They're for the girl I fell in love with two years ago
12.
I dedicate this song to Christian Diana, Brian Milligram, and Mike Lombardi. The three most helpful and supportive people in this Song-a-Week project. This is Song-a-Week 51, it's called Aura of Happiness. No, I won't talk about metacognitivity And no I won't talk about bananas But I will tell you the story about how I wrote one song every week for the past year When I was 18 and I was sexually frustrated I set myself a challenge that would help me improve musically I lost some friends and I made some new ones in the process But about a year ago I never thought a single thing would change Some awkward kid walking around with a guitar Playing songs every Thursday at the Tuscan Cafe and nowhere else But then I found myself in a very special place The kind of place you'd think was outer space I found myself in an aura of happiness High above the ground in a place I can't digress I get lost in the feelings of every song that I wrote That I wrote, that I wrote Now look at me I'm a different kid One thing's never changed I still don't give a shit About what anybody thinks about me or my music But before you talk just keep this in mind I was told I have the heart of an Idaho potato I'm not taking any shit from anyone anymore I found myself in an aura of happiness High above the ground in a place I can't digress I get lost in the feelings of every song that I wrote That I wrote, that I wrote There's one more week left and I don't know what to do with that This year flew by so fast I don't know what goal to arrive at This right here is the end of a chapter of my life And next Friday will be the start of another one I found myself in an aura of happiness High above the ground in a place I can't digress I get lost in the feelings of every song I wrote That I wrote I wrote about Jessica, I slept in skinny jeans I fucking hate Applebee's, I live in a lakehouse I really like bacon, I really miss you and me Probably somewhere, three hours of sleep Homesick in Oklahoma, I kinda love JP I fucking hate society, I wrote about Matt Gould And I wrote about a secret I stuck up for my friends, I sat on the Canaan bench I wrote about paintings, God gave me a second chance This one's for you too, Starhaven Avenue Wake up San Fran, my childhood is gone Another deadly secret, mashing up potatoes Silly little love letters, Interstate 25 And I saw the rings of saturn I wear mookie mookie pants, I didn't write on Casey's shirt I feel infinite, we have the best of both worlds Ellie is my best friend, everyone almost died I miss those good night calls, I want to die right next to you I couldn't write a song, I had a silly dream Fly me to England, I'm not getting better And before I say thank you and good night Holding hands and rainbows, driving through New Mexico I really wish that you were here, come back to the past Now it's all over, it should've been one year I'm hungry and half-awake in Psych 105 You're a cyber piece of fuck, who the hell ever knew I wanna catch a subway train before she dies And here I am, singing my second to last I never want to revisit my past Everything that happened there can stay there No other experience will ever compare I found myself in an aura of happiness High above the ground in a place I can't digress I get lost in the feelings of every song that I wrote That I wrote, that I wrote
13.
Tarrytown memories, take four One two three Nobody ever had any faith in me Nobody ever thought I would go through with this But here I am, shining as bright as I can be Anyone who has any doubts, they'll have to come and see What happened to originality? What happened to playing the music that you like I was sick of who I was, trying to always fit in I couldn't take it anymore, I wasn't true to myself So four years ago today I drove across the bridge And these five guys changed everything for me You're the reason I picked up a guitar You're the reason I broke out my shell You shine as bright as a shooting star And you're the person that got my life out of hell I didn't want to be like everybody else Though I admit, I wanted to be like you So I said, fuck you all, I'm going to do what I want Everything I was in the past, none of it was ever true I took a risk that would cost me more than my dignity So I tried something new and pushed my ability You're the reason I put down those sticks You're the reason I left them all Corrupted minds I just can't fix If I bash their heads against a wall If I could go back in time and talk to them None of them would admit to being happy Robots controlled by the music scene Robots controlled by society Don't give in to society Don't give in to anybody else Just do what makes you happy And fuck what everybody else thinks Oh ooh woah, I love you Oh ooh woah, yes I do Oh ooh woah, I love you Oh ooh woah I'll always love you Flansburgh and Linnell And that's the end

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The end of a 52 Song-a-Week project. The final thirteen weeks where I gave it my all (save for two weeks) and put all my emotion into my songs. It was the final thirteen weeks, I had to make them count. Because of this, this EP includes some of my longest songs I've ever written, along with the shortest song I've ever written. Both as of May 2013.

Weeks 40-52. From Feburary 14th, 2013 to May 9th, 2013. The fast-paced love hit, "Holding Hands and Making Rainbows", to the ballad in tribute to the very first Song-a-Week and They Might Be Giants, "Tarrytown Memories".

This EP includes live hits such as "Back to the Past", and "Subway Trains".

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released May 24, 2014

Recorded at Avery Studios in Middletown, NY

Jason Avery DeLima // vocals, guitar, bass, drums

All songs written by Jason Avery DeLima

Album art by Izzy Liberti

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Jason Avery New York, New York

Formerly professionally known as "Jason DeLima", Jason Avery is a 20 year old freelance multi-instrumentalist who specializes in drumming but also happens to play pitch based music.

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