I tried to end my life a year ago
Things were getting rough, it just goes to show

I felt hopeless, thought things will never get better
And by God, one year later, I never realized how right I would be

This wasn't the first, and it wouldn't be the last
Numerous trips to the emergency room

Numerous of doctors know my name and they've heard my story
Many of them continue to learn that I'm not getting better

I've lost the confidence to ever trust myself to another woman
I've been hurt too many times to go down that same ragged path again

And at this point I wouldn't care if I die alone
I'm a worthless totured artistic soul and I don't have a place to call a home

Voices inside my head say I should just end it all
End the pain, suffering, and all the bad memories suffocating me
And if one day that I should pass, consider this my letter
Every day that passes by, I realize that I'm not getting better

When I'm feeling good, everything just crashes down
Right on top of me, leaving me to drown

Memories and people from my past fill up my lungs
And I slowly lose my consciousness

So my question is, is this ever going to end
Will I live to see the age of 38

Or do you think I'll ever cave in and shoot myself
Kill the demons inside my head and smear them against the wall

Voices inside my head say I should just end it all
End the pain, suffering, and all the bad memories suffocating me
And if one day that I should pass, consider this my letter
Every day that passes by, I realize that I'm not getting better

Sometimes I wish someone would hit me with their car
Or hold a gun to my head while they ask me to give them my money
'Cause I know I don't have what it takes to end this miserable excuse for a life
So I hope for the worst and I hope for it to happen soon

When I'm gone, I know that people will miss me
They'll realize they took me for granted and regret the way they neglected me

So I'll be blunt, I really want to die
Why should I hope for the best if it's not going to get better?

Voices inside my head say I should just end it all
End the pain, suffering, and all the bad memories suffocating me
And if one day that I should pass, consider this my letter
Every day that passes by, I realize that I'm not getting better